I wanna STORY

I mean, whoa… it’s finally SEPTEMBER!

I can’t believe how time could really flow this fast…very fast actually…

Guess what? I still clearly remember about the first day of me stepping on this tawau Campus with a very frustrated negative feeling inside of me. Haha, but hey, now I actually almost finish my 1/s year out of the 5 and a ½ year of studying TESL. Say yay! xD

      I miss my family… I miss my bed at home. I miss my meow2 as well. And mostly, I miss my new house… yeah, my house is in a renovation condition at this moment and it is predicted that it will finish by the end of this month, for sure. ;) im coming back at October, hopefully I can see a brand new beautiful perfect house!

      And hey, ‘he’ always makes me happy whenever the sky is grey. He made my day almost all the time. And, I like u just the way u are. J is it too much if I say I started to like u and most likely like into u? haha… funny isn’t it? Well, in fact, it’s true.

      And one more, this ‘guy’, sorry but I really HATE u already. Stop text and call me. Thanks! :D my life is perfect without u bothering me. Yes, it’s true man~

Letting U and I__FLY LOVE

HEY YOU~ :")

I love U!! xD

Wasn´t really thinking, wasn´t looking , wasn´t searching
for an answer
In the moonlight
When I saw your face

  Saw you looking at me, saw you peaking out from under
  moon beams
  Through the palm trees
  Swaying in the breeze

I know that I´m feeling so much more than ever before
And so I´m giving more to you that I though I could do

  Don´t know how it happened, don´t know why, but you don´t
  really need a reason
  When the stars shine
  Just to fall in love
Made to love each other, made to be together for a life time
In the sunshine
Flying in the sky
  I know I´m feeling so much more than ever before
  And so I´m giving more to you than I thought I could do

Now I know love is real
So when the sky high, as the angels dry
Letting you and I fly love

i love__but i hate

Gosh, it hurts! U did hurt me tonight! Congratulation. U happy for it? I bet u do! Standing ovation for ya!

Guess what, it has been too long since the last time ive felt this kind of angriness in my heart, my heart is like pumping 5x even faster than it’s normal beats because… IM ANGRY! Yes, I really am!

I don’t know why I can’t stand with ur overdo jokes tonight, they seem stupid. Yeah! Super stupid! OMG! I wanna scream out loud man… Why is this happening to … ME???

I cant talk anymore, I wanna crash some things around me. Dammit!

YA I'M__STRESS

STRESS!!!

Being stress is so not me. I hate being stress but that’s the only thing that I keep on going through since the first time I stepped in this life of campus. I feel like I want to throw away all of this ridiculous stuffs but, man, this is my permanent job already! Moreover, I got to keep on doing the same routine for 5 years ahead! I’m dead, for real.

Please, do I have to deal with this kind of life for a very long period of time? I really hope that i'll be able to be in a place where there is no stress, no work to be done and yeah, i know i talk nonsense now, because i'm so over stressed up. SH*T. :(

Guess what, just now, our lecturer told us to RE-DO our assignment plus 15 pages of an essay. OMG! u got me a serious heart attacked, what a huge shock! 

Okay fine. That's it. I'm done. Im outta here. >.<"

I say__I Believe

I believe that it’s taking me a long time to become the person 

I wanna be.

I believe that he leaves me with his loving words. Well, It 

may be the last time he sees me.

I believe that I can keep going long after I can’t.

I believe that I’m responsible for what I do, no matter how I feel.

I believe that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is 

at first, the passion fades and there had better be something 


else to take its place.

And I’m totally believe that just because someone doesn’t love me 




the way I want them to doesn’t mean they don’t love me with 


all they have.

I’m sad…currently, I’m totally down. Really down!

im sick__again

I'm sick.

I vomitted twice today. And now, im feeling such bad dizziness that I, again, need to vomit! I hate this sickness which makes me feel really down...

My mom called me just now, and i told her the whole story of my days here, in Tawau. She was happy, yet worried a lot when she knew that im sick. Omg, mum, i miss u so bad, u know? :”( i wanna go home, and hug u tight!

What i can do now is just pray, and hope that i’ll recover soon from this dizziness, stomachache, fever and pain in the heart. Pain in the heart? Yeah, pain in my heart. 

That’s all for now. Gotta get my work done. Burning midnight oil, again. huhu...

Why is that so

Do you ever being hated? No? Well, i offer myself then. :D Would you accept it?


I don't really know what is sooo wrong with u. U're such a jerk. Before this, u talk so many sweet things and bla bla bla, duh~ all of your words are C-R-A-P-S!


Thank God I've half blocked you in the fb, which means... U won't bother me anymore, yay! victory! dammit, why i met u before...? Such an unfair reality...


Nevermind la, from now on, u go boy! and don't come back. :DD